AM I 13 FOR GOOD?

Sorry I've been neglecting you readers, it's been a busy couple of weeks.

The start of Summer festivals at work, I can't believe it's here already!


Then Pride. I have never taken part in the festivities as much as I have this year, but I was helping a girlfriend chase her (potentially gay-eep) love interest, so I was in The Village most of the weekend. AND IT WAS AMAZING!!! Dancing, and drinking and watching my homo-couple friends be so free and so in love, it gives a girl hope.

I have to say that I am proud to live in a city where, when a hate-spreading individual went screaming profanities up Church Street, the entire crowd turned around to glare or yell back as his poor girlfriend pushed him through the crowd. Ahh, bigots.


On Monday night I went to the Dora Awards , it was a good time, but I spent most of the night feeling a bit insecure. I knew a few people there, but not too many, so I ended up hanging out with two theatre acquaintances, but I couldn't help but feel like a tag-a-long, even though I was invited to hang with them. I think it comes from wanting to be apart of a world that I am on the cusp of, but not quite immersed in yet.

Sometimes I am such a scared little girl with a big dream.

And that's ok.

I got over it by Tuesday afternoon and realized the power I have to change my life at any moment. This is a scary thought, but an empowering one. Sometimes there are forces you can't change, but there are always choices you can make.

I had a fitness assessment at my new gym on Tuesday.

I joined Weight Watchers yesterday.

It's time girlfriend, I said to myself.

During the meeting, the leader was talking about this exact thing. The moment you choose, to use all the tools and power available to yourself, inside yourself to make something happen.

I left with a huge smile on my face.

This is my time, I feel it.

I fucking love all these cosmic connections that are happening lately. Or maybe they have always been happening, I'm just finally awake to them. Silently listening.

I head for Taye cottage tomorrow for the long weekend with some of my favorite people on the planet. Happy Canada Day! I am so excited to get out of the city. I am missing nature, and home, (and other homes) so a weekend in the woods and water will do me good.

mmm cottage.