I HATE NOT HAVING INTERNET AT MY HOUSE!

Mostly because I was unable to write about this ecstatically after it happened!


I worked the Sarah Harmer show on Thursday, and she was everything I could have hoped for. I had to keep my groupieness to a minimum, as I was representing The Harbs .
It was amazing and the show was amazing and she played all I wanted to hear, it was a spectacular moment I have to say. I was scared, because it's always tricky to decide if you want to meet an artist you admire so much and that is so connected to your emotions, but my girl came through!

Phew! I had to let that out!

This moment was bookended the next day with one of the saddest 5:30ams I've had in a long time. I went to a going away party for friends from Australia that were moving on in their travels. The party was great, I felt amazing, but something was in the air. . .

I ended up in a hallway in the Annex once more, with the DJ. I broke my vow, damn it! I don't know if it was the alcohol, or the fact that I have been thinking about him constantly for the past 2 weeks. I don't even know why I have been doing that. Man, this growth thing is like a fucking amusement park, sometimes you're on the ride, and it's amazing and you're laughing your head off, and other times, you feel like you're going to barf and are screaming to get off!

There were too many things said, I don't remember half of them, some from booze, some from some sort of self-preservation mechanism in my brain. It was okay, and then it went bad, and it was so odd. Then I turned around and the Auzies were leaving, so there were more tears. Tears filling up Sarah's apartment.

I find it so insane that there are those people in the world, that will always make you loose your breathe, even just a little bit.

I cried myself to sleep for the first time in months last night.

Maybe it's letting go, maybe it's holding on, I don't know, but it's somethin'.