A CHANGE DID ME GOOD

I take it back Wayne Gretzky!

Remember that post way back in July I think where I abused you for your Ford commercial line
"change your attitude, change your life"
I sincerely apologize, you were right, I was wrong, it really does work.

It's funny that all this time, I was trying to force myself to let go. And when I just let it come naturally, out of exhaustion, or readiness, or even pain, it just happened. And it feels great.

I felt a major change coming on. Here's a recap of things I have done in the last week because of it:

1. Cut my hair off
2. Entered the world of online dating-oh I'm that girl now
3. Applied for two jobs that I actually want
4. Went to the gym and pushed myself harder than ever before, I am so sore, but my ass is gonna look amazing!
5. Cried and cried about my life with Kev, but then with his help made doable plans in order to reach my goals/dreams
6. Stopped beating myself up when I slip from the plan

It's weird, my shoulders feel light, I am smiling all the time and it's weird. I think I have finally let myself be happy, and successful. It sounds ridiculous, but it is hard to do sometimes.

Number 2 on the list is going to lead to amazing blog posts. It is going well, thanks to Kev, who wrote the majority of my profile, but it actually sounds like I wrote it-bizarre! I think we are the same person, I'm not kidding. I promise to write more details later when stuff starts happening.