DING DING!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Remember that time I went crazy because I haven't really ever dated in my entire life? That was the past two weeks. I am a serial monogamist, always have been. Now I'm not one of those girls that jumps from relationship to relationship, I take time out in between, but have never done the casual date or casual sex thing. Well, starting this fall I started the casual sex thing, so dating couldn't have been far off.

I have learned why women are crazy: dating. Dating makes everyone crazy. Or maybe it's just me.

Story number one: The first time I'm back up to bat, I meet the ever so popular-I'm going to seem like a great, funny, cute normal guy, but really I'm a huge misogynistic woman-hater DICK guy. This guy really hurt my feelings, as he made it quite clear that I wasn't pretty enough to date him. The direct line was "thanks for the pictures, good luck in your search"

Harsh. Now, I know as well as the next person that pysical attraction is important, but there is a way to tell someone you are not attracted to them, like saying that perhaps "I'm not that attracted to you" and perhaps not over MSN, perhaps be a man and call or even, just this time, I would accept the awkward email. You don't owe me anymore than that really, we didn't even meet, we talked online and the phone. But as a human being, you owe me a little, I don't know POLITENESS! So, I was pretty shaken, then angry when I read his charming new profile in which he described how crazy women always loved him, but he wasn't complaining because they're always beautiful and the sex is great. WHAT? All I have to say is, stupid is as stupid does. Don't complain if you're brining it on yourself asshole.

So, since then I have been completely irrational, assuming things about these men I don't even know, and just freaking out in general. I guess it shook me more than I thought, it was just mean, plain and simple. So this week I'm back on the horse, and am trying to calm down a bit, and remind myself that I did this because it would be fun, and that I'm not one of those people that need someone to be fulfilled, that boys are just nice to have around sometimes, and can be loving amazing parts of my life, but are not a necessity of it.


Next round, hopefully I'll have stronger armor, but perhaps won't need it.