STEPPING OUT OF THE RING

People! Two reasons I haven't been able to write in so long :
1. Blogger is switcing to gmail and giving me the hardest time ever about it!
2. I joined Facebook or Facecrack as it is now well known, and well, are addicted!

So. . . . . . . the update, so much has happened!

Okay, boys, boys, boys!

Dirty teacher guy stood me up, well not stood me up, but didn't finalize plans and then disappeared for a while, only to return the next time I had a dirty name on my MSN account-surprise surprise! Still flirting with the idea of meeting up/hooking up, we'll see if that ever pans out-he was a bit of a jerk face about it, yet I am still intrigued, I am a sick puppy sometimes! It's funny, because he is amazing on paper, I just can't place what his deal is! The balls in his court according to me, I'm here baby, it's up to you.

Computer boy didn't pan out, he was not ready for dating after his divorse, but get this: he was actually HONEST!!!! He emailed me to tell me that, this is a crazy thought I know, but guess what people, other people like it when you are honest-try it you won't believe the results!

I have gone on a couple of dates with one gentleman from the lava, (we'll call him Danish boy) it was pretty good, we'll see.

And that's it, I have given up the lavalife for the most part, it is taking over my life and I was taking it way too seriously, I don't need that right now, and I'm in no real rush, so why put pressure on myself? I mean if something happens, then great, I'm ready I think, but not needy of it, which is a good place to be.

In other news, it has been a year since me and the DJ broke up, a whole year, man that went by fast. I have to say that I am really proud of myself, I have made it threw the hardest year of my life, and the most life changing experience of my life. My opinions on relationships, marriage, babies, sex all of it have changed.

But most importantly, my preception of myself has changed, I see myself in full view now, with all the faults and flaws, and I still really love all of it. I think this is the first time I have said that honestly and meant it in my whole life. My foundation is solid now, I feel like I can handle just about anything, and I am excited for my life, and I love taking it day by day.

Life is good, it's great. It's not perfect, but it never is, and it never will be. If it is it's not a challenge, and that's really where the fun comes from.

I wish the peace of true self-love to surround all of you babies!
xoxoxoxo