RETURN OF THE CRUSH

A long time ago, I decided to stop trying to predict my life so much, to stop stressing over things that I can not control, and to live in the moment more. In general this decision has made me a much more positive and happier person; but this weekend I discovered one of the best parts of living your life like this. The completely unexpected and totally amazing experience.

On Friday night I went out for drinks with an old friend, a friend I hadn't spoken with in four years. Now, I must explain, that I did have a crush on this person when we first met, but I was going into the night with an open mind, no expectations-well, as you can imagine, my expectations were exceeded. All I can say is that, the best part of kissing someone you've wanted to kiss for four years, is that it's better than you could have ever imagined. This is especially risky to write now because I know he is reading this right now, but I made a promise to myself and my readers when I started this blog, that I would be honest, mostly with myself, so there it is.

I'm bringing it back people, the Crush. It's the perfect relationship, there's no pressure, it's just fun and full of anticipation and not messy. I don't know where it's going, I don't know how he feels about it. It was all very unplanned; all I do know is, every time I think about him I have a ridiculous giggling grin on my face like I'm a teenager. It's way to fun to stop. And for once, I'm not putting any serious pressure on it, one day at a time.

"I have crush, and I think him very cute" Carrie Bradshaw