HEAVY HEARTS ON SUNNY DAYS

I believe that the universe sends you information to process all the time, and it is up to you to process it in the right way, to listen to the signs or not. I also believe it sends you little signs in hard times, that say you will be okay.

In that respect, I was listening to CBC radio (which I am now obsessed with) this afternoon and they had an interview with a member of this group . And they played their clips, amazing. What did I learn from this interview? Life is an amazing precious gift, and yes bad things happen, but worse things could happen, and bad things will always happen. But, amazing things happen too, and it is so short that you have to wake up everyday, excited and thankful and without expectations, and just keep ROCKIN' ON till the end and beyond.

I'm not saying that being sad is a bad thing, it is apart of it all, to feel it all, experience it all. That's life. And it is not a bad thing to take the time to feel those bad things, to take the time for you, but eventually you have to pick up your guitar again and get your rock on.

So, in light of this, and a conversation with Ana last week, when she said "I was devestated when we broke up, couldn't walk, couldn't get out of bed, but then I realized, my life is AWESOME, and I got up." I am going to list some pretty awesome stuff in my life at the moment.

1. I'm tall, and strong and healthy (knock wood)
2. I have many different places to call home, and feel completely at home in
3. My family rocks
4. My extended sister network is the most incrediable collection of women I have ever met
5. I have the opportunity to go to school when ever I want and study what ever I want
6. My cat.
7. My roomies
8. I have Italian Wedding soup for lunch-YUM!
9. Babies that my sisters bore.
10. I am beginning to fall in love with myself.
11. It's peppermint mocha season.
12. I know how it feels to love someone with every piece of yourself. And how it feels to be loved.

I feel a lot better. I know that I can not force myself to be in a place that I am not, nor should I feel the need to do that. I know I will get through this. I know great things are going to come. I know I am a good person.

Heading home tomorrow. SO FREAKIN' EXCITED!!!!!!!!!