WHAT DOES HOCKEY HAVE TO DO WITH CARS, OR CAN WE EVER FORGIVE WAYNE?
I got to thinking about that freakin' Ford commercial that Wayne Gretzky
was doing last year, I think, where the tag line was "Change your attitude, change your life". This is a great phrase I do admit, and I'm sure worked for "The Great One" in his life, he has accomplished a lot. But I couldn't help but think, is it true?
Now I have to preference this by saying, I think it was absolutely ridiculous to have this tag line for a car commercial, maybe if it was for his foundation, or any of the charities he supports, or The Special Olympics maybe, but a CAR COMMERCIAL, honestly Wayne, the line is so out of place!!! I just kept saying out loud everytime I saw him drive away in that Ford pickup "Thanks for the tip Wayne" What the fuck?!
But further, I was questioning if I believe this, if this would work in all circumstances. I am a firm believer in positive thinking and the power of positive energy to change the way you go about things, therefore changing the outcome. But I am wondering if it is all that simple.
I have been holding on to a lot of angry lately, and it is clearly coming across in my dealings with certain people. So, I decided to try it the other night with DJ (who else really). I was thinking that I need to find some forgiveness in my heart, that I was carrying all of this anger and resentment and that really, not to sound hokey, it was bringing down my spirit. I was thinking this and then I talked to him.
And it just came out, in my actions, in my words, in my tone of voice. I couldn't help it. I really want to find the forgiveness, I want to for me mostly, to move on, but all the anger just came out. And I hate it, it is so not me, I am not that person. I have always been a quick forgive, too quick sometimes.
Maybe it's unanswered questions, maybe I'm waiting for an apology that will never come.
So, my question is, can you find forgiveness, or does it have to find you?
posted by Natalia Goodwin @ 4:33 PM
1 Comments:
I think forgiveness comes in time. It's not something you can force and it's not something that you can have after a breakup right away. No matter how much you want to....you can't snap your fingers and say that today is going be the day! It's something that finds you within time. Anger can come from many different things. For every person it is different. For me, I am usually angry at the unanswered questions. That's not to say that they are never anwsered. They usually are but it takes some time. I also go through this period of time of beating myself up that makes me angry. Like, "Well maybe if I had tried harder then we would still be together", or "It was my fault that we broke up because I didn't stay up late at night to watch his favorite movies", or the classic, "I am ugly and not as pretty as all the young chicks he is hanging out with now." I also get very angry when guys start actually doing all those things that you wish they would have done with you, after they break up with you. That pisses me off. "So Rachael I am now going to the gym like 5 days a week." Fuck off buddy!!!
The anger will stop. For me it happens when I least expect it. Usually I have to forgive myself first, because even though I know it wasn't all my fault....I still end up blaming myself. It's a fucken woman thing.
The thing is, and I keep trying to tell myself this.......it's not your fault. Sometimes relationships just don't work. Sometimes the love is not enough. Thats fucken life....and we just have to deal.
But it doesn't end there. When the anger stops you will feel a new beginning. You will see that other person that you once loved and laugh at them. Sometimes, you will later on down the road meet that person again and have a different level of relationship. Look at me and James a bear.....we are better friends than we ever were dating. I am soo glad that he is in my life. Although remember there was a time where I was sooo angry at him......
Anyways...didn't mean to write a novel, but I know where you are at. Just be patient and really concentrate on yourself....because you are amazing.....you are just soo amazing.
Rachael out
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