SNAKES ON YOUR SELF-WORTH

Sorry for my absence people, but I moved, and got the flu, but now I'm back.

Okay, okay, I know everyone is talking about it, and everyone is blogging about it, but it is so good, yes, last night, I saw some mothafuckin' snakes on a mothafuckin' plane.

HELLS YES!!!

All I have to say is, Samuel L Jackson is the MAN, seriously if everyone could be as confident as Samuel L the world would be a different place, we would have so much more accomplished. If we just took the time to have fun with our lives, to make our own obviously stupid movie, and have an amazing time doing it, laughing at everyone that is taking it seriously.

A girlfriend called me the other day and was so sad, because she felt like she wasn't good enough, that all her relationships had failed because she hadn't been something to her partners. I was so upset by this, because this woman is amazing, and she is amazing in her own right, without and bells and whistles.

We just need to tell ourselves this everyday, because it is true.

Samuel L Jackson is my new mothafuckin' life coach!

25 YEARS OF LIVING

Yesterday was my birthday, it was fantastic, full of friends and love and hope. Turning 26 is really scary for me, I feel like some kind of grown up, I'm not sure when that happened.

On such occasions I like to reflect on how far I've come, so. . .


10 THINGS I LEARNED IN MY 25TH YEAR OF LIFE:

1. Karokee is one of the funest (it's a word shut up) way to make a fool of yourself
2. I am really good at being diplomatic
3. When you see your siblings with their children it gives you a new found respect for them
4. Sex and the City is one of the best shows ever written for TV, despite it's faults
5. Felicity, however had a disappointing ending, shame
6. It is heart breaking when your convictions aren't true
7. Disappointment is the worst feeling to feel about someone
8. Life will always surprise you, and you can surprise yourself
9. You can not control any one else's actions (I re-learned that one)
10. There comes a time in your life when you learn to spot the true people and know to hold on to them, because they will bring you through, and the fakers aren't worth the energy
BONUS: 11. I am truly a valued person to a lot of people

And that feels amazing!

WHAT DOES HOCKEY HAVE TO DO WITH CARS, OR CAN WE EVER FORGIVE WAYNE?

I got to thinking about that freakin' Ford commercial that Wayne Gretzky
was doing last year, I think, where the tag line was "Change your attitude, change your life". This is a great phrase I do admit, and I'm sure worked for "The Great One" in his life, he has accomplished a lot. But I couldn't help but think, is it true?

Now I have to preference this by saying, I think it was absolutely ridiculous to have this tag line for a car commercial, maybe if it was for his foundation, or any of the charities he supports, or The Special Olympics maybe, but a CAR COMMERCIAL, honestly Wayne, the line is so out of place!!! I just kept saying out loud everytime I saw him drive away in that Ford pickup "Thanks for the tip Wayne" What the fuck?!

But further, I was questioning if I believe this, if this would work in all circumstances. I am a firm believer in positive thinking and the power of positive energy to change the way you go about things, therefore changing the outcome. But I am wondering if it is all that simple.

I have been holding on to a lot of angry lately, and it is clearly coming across in my dealings with certain people. So, I decided to try it the other night with DJ (who else really). I was thinking that I need to find some forgiveness in my heart, that I was carrying all of this anger and resentment and that really, not to sound hokey, it was bringing down my spirit. I was thinking this and then I talked to him.

And it just came out, in my actions, in my words, in my tone of voice. I couldn't help it. I really want to find the forgiveness, I want to for me mostly, to move on, but all the anger just came out. And I hate it, it is so not me, I am not that person. I have always been a quick forgive, too quick sometimes.

Maybe it's unanswered questions, maybe I'm waiting for an apology that will never come.

So, my question is, can you find forgiveness, or does it have to find you?